I never really put much thought into the afterlife, but somehow always grew up believing in it. I experienced a few losses early in life, but was too young to grasp the enormity in terms of after. Or maybe, if anything was present, I don't remember.
I was much older when my grandma died. I took the full impact of her death then, and for many years to come. Still, I only remember one instance of her presence bringing any sort of comfort afterward.
I never believed in signs before, but these "phenomena" started happening after Kama died. Even after, I wouldn't call them by name. I'd just look at Dave and ask, "Isn't that weird?" As if they were merely coincidence, knowing all the while I don't believe in coincidence. But, these things just kept adding up - one atop and more distinctive than the next - until they just couldn't be denied. In a world of hurt and astronomical pain, they brought a sliver of reassurance and comfort.
After a while, I was able to call them by name. Now, there have been countless signs and times both Kama and Aviana have come back to me, each in a way that's completely unique to our relationship. Sometimes they're on the subtler side, but certainly never to be ignored. Other times - when I'm really in need - they are in my face blatant. Either way, the message is always clear, "I'm here for you. You are not alone."
I definitely wasn't open to this before. It's been a long time coming. I think about who I was before Aviana's accident. That girl was more controlling and close-minded. She moved quicker, and was less patient. All this makes me wonder? Was my grandma there all along and I was too blind to see her? Was I moving too fast? Was I not still enough? Not open enough? Or did none of this matter? I don't know. Whatever the case, I'm grateful for what I have now - two girls who reach back for me. Two girls who continuously let me know we are good. Two girls who show me we are one... and always will be.
I've heard many of these kinds of stories and I so love them. I'm wondering, have any of you experienced this as well? If so, can you tell me more? Do you think they are real, or not? If you do believe in them, did you always believe in this sort of thing, or no? Were you skeptical at first? Are your signs subtle, or straight forward? If subtle, did you sometimes have a hard time believing them at first? Can you tell the difference now?